Brb going to Chicago.

I should be back tonight; the load factors, however, are very heavy. I'm using a priority pass but I still may get kicked.  Let us hope they have clean sidewalks in Chicago, yes?  ^^

My tooth has been really swollen for the past week, so I finally conceded that it was abscessed and told my mom. She made me go to the dentist. I pointed it out that I had no money.  She won the argument with a very loud, "MONEY DOESN'T MATTER WHEN YOU'RE DEAD."  Fair point, I give her that, so I dragged myself out early this morning to the emergency clinic.  My pretty bad insurance covers emergency visits when there's no work done, and it's too swollen right now to even do anything.  They're going to have to extract it, but I just want it to stop being infected so I don't die, so he gave me penicillin and vicodin for the pain.  He was a really sweet guy.  The last dentist I went to made me feel horrible for the way my teeth are, but this guy was totally all, "I completely understand if you haven't been able to pay for anything in the past, but you're still young, so you should try to do things when you can." Totally cool.  It doesn't even hurt, it just feels like a huge knot underneath my tooth which is annoying. But I am not going to turn down prescription painkillers, no way.  I'll need them in the future at some point, I'm certain.

There's a Lady Gage takeover on Fuse.  I love it.

I'm so sleepy.  Went to Phoenix on Saturday, really didn't do what I was went there for, but that's fine.  We watched 17 Again and Mean Girls since Mean Girls is classic~ and 17 Again was actually really cute. We were going watch Up since I haven't seen it.  Somehow we ended up getting drunk and watching Arthur. I find this completely legit.

I saw the Lovely Bones last week with my friends. I had no desire really to see it since it looked horribly depressing - surprise! It really was.  The most painful movie I've ever seen, hands down. Subjects like that just knock me in the face.  I'd lose my goddamn mind if something happened to my little brother or sister.  It was very sad.  I think it was supposed to be uplifting at the end, but I was still thoroughly depressed. Fail.

I got a cheap fedora with a peacock feather in it.  I plan on never wearing it, but I could not resist.

Lately I feel like everything I do is just another step toward yet another inevitable failure.

There's a remedy for that; I think it's called determination. 

Maybe it's just impatience.  Maybe more accurately, fatalism.

I TALKED TO JAMES MCAVOY TODAY GUYS. JAMES MOTHERFUCKING MCAVOY.  IF YOU'VE BEEN AROUND MY TUMBLR THEN YOU KNOW I LOVE HIM ANDANDANDANDAND.

I fangirled so hard the people around me were like, what's wrong with you? And I was just like, I'M FLAILING, LEAVE ME ALONE.  And then continued to flail forever and am still flailing.  I just love him omg.  Now if I could only talk to Jeremy Renner my life would be complete.  But omggg, James McAvoy ahhh.

Ok, I'm done. 

I don't know how this happened, but instead of saying or writing "totally" I'm using "totes."

Oh my gosh, wuttttt. 

Also, The Hurt Locker comes out on Tuesday. MY BABY.

Spending New Years Eve with mekkisry . So far so good and awesome! I'm drinking plum wine we got from the Asian market.  I feel tipsy in a non tipsy way.  But being tipsy always makes me type well.  We also just had mac and cheese and then ran outside and threw firecrackers at the ground.  We win at life!  Also watched Paranormal Activity.  And are actively ghost hunting her house.  Come on ghosties, grace us with your presence!

For this year I am excited for: 

-- Going back to school
-- Some super spiffy cons
-- Going back to school
-- Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows, pt 1
-- Relationships.  Lots and lots of other relationships.
--  Writing more.  
-- New MCR album
-- New Lydia album
-- New Envy on the Coast album
-- Getting to go to Pride in Phoenix.
-- Phoenix.
--  Birth By Sleep
--  Going back to school
--  Still being alive

Happy New Years guys.  Celebrate with some plum wine and mac and cheese.  It's the little things.  I love you all

Let's go plum wine.  Yeaaaa boyyyy.  Also tried some durian cake.  Can you say wtf?  I can.  WTF I SAY WTF.

<3

That's it, 2009 officially sucks.  This is the one that hits closest to home.  Fuck this shit. 

Not the biggest A7X fan, but fucking christ dude, that man could play.  

If you're okay with what happened in New York today, kindly keep your opinion to yourself and watch this video and then leave the country. Thanks.

I've finally filled all my icon spots.

My paid account, will all my additional icon spots, expires next month.

I win at life! :D

Every Tuesday on USA is a Law and Order: SVU marathon and since Tuesday is the day when I have nothing to do in the morning, I'm generally up early since lol, obsessed with SVU here. For the past three months they've been pimping White Collar, and as Matt Bomer makes me melt, I finally caught up on it on Hulu. It's a light, fun show, and omg Matt Bomer, MELTMELTMELT.

New Moon comes out tonight. WHO'S PUMPED?! -shot-

No, j/k. My friend and I considered going to the midnight showing and laughing really loudly during the serious parts. We'll probably catch it in the dollar theatre, because the first movie was fucking lulzy as all hell, and even then when we were laughing the housewives in front of us were getting miffed. I think if we did that at this midnight showing we might get shot.

It might be worth it.